I am a wife, the mother of a 12 year old amazing little boy and I have a type of systemic arthritis called Ankylosing Spondylitis and one of the rarest known forms of migraine disorder called Hemiplegic Migraine. The kind of autoimmune systemic arthritis that I have is the kind that can attack any part of your body, including major organs. Unfortunately, that’s exactly what it did. It silently attacked my lungs for years before I was finally diagnosed with lung disease (emphysema) just two years after my initial diagnosis of Ankylosing Spondylitis. The doctors were absolutely clueless (and useless) until the damage began to show up and by that point, it was too late to do anything about it.
The treatments for the autoimmune systemic arthritis are dangerous and I didn’t feel safe starting treatment while my son was still so young as they could result in organ failure or any number of other problems like rare fatal cancers and blood disorders among other things so I opted to wait until my son was older. At this point, it has advanced and progressed so rapidly that it’s likely a lost cause and it’s possible letting the disease run its course will actually give me more time with my family than if I opt for treatment, so it’s likely that I won’t bother seeking that treatment out.
I am however still in the process of finding a neurologist that has even heard of Hemiplegic Migraine disorder as it is so rare, most doctors have never heard of it and even less know how to treat it. I have taken so long in this regard because I didn’t recognize how badly I was being affected by it until recently. I decided to do a little more research on the condition after a particularly bad migraine during one of my recent flare ups of AS (which seems to be typical for me) and there was far more information on the condition than there was when I initially attempted to research it many years ago, and found an updated profile of the condition and its symptoms that suddenly made my life make sense in a way it never had before.
Hemiplegic Migraine can present almost exactly like stroke which is what makes it a rather terrifying condition but it doesn’t always present that way which is why it’s often difficult to identify when I’m having one of these migraines and it doesn’t always come with the horrible head pain either making it even more difficult to recognize. I will post more in depth about both conditions in a series of blog posts later down the line so if this interests you, keep a lookout for those posts.
A Little Background
I’m 36 years old now and I grew up in a Christian home, not all of my family were Christians of course, but my dad, my grandmother, my aunt & uncle were and even my mother was for a time. Conversely, many others in my family were (and are) also deep into the occult and witchcraft. I had two great aunts who were witches, one thought she was a “black witch” and the other thought she was a “white witch” but really there’s no difference in the two, witchcraft is witchcraft. My great grandmother on my mother’s side may have been a witch as well and my grandfather on my dads side was ritualistically abusive to his five children (***Trigger Warning***) and he raped all three of his daughters and possibly my dad and my uncle as well.
My dad used to tell me stories about his childhood, how his father would tie up my dad and my aunt (my dads older sister) and would hang them upside down (and completely naked) from the rafters by their feet in the garage and would come in occasionally only to push them as they hung there naked and would just laugh at them as they helplessly swung by their bound feet. Other times my grandfather would come into my dads room in the middle of the night and sit at the foot of his bed with his cigar near my dads feet and just stare at him, I think he did end up burning him a couple of times as well with cigarettes.
My dad also remembered as a boy seeing his father thrown through the air across the living room by an unseen force and later his father admitted to being into the occult and said that it was a demon that had thrown him across the living room because he refused to kill his whole family as the demon demanded. That grandfather died of an extremely rare disease called Creutzfeldt-Jakob disease (CJD), which is a prion disease much like mad cow disease. What most people don’t know is that you can contract prion disease from cannibalism, Kuru is a good example of that. I’m not saying that’s how my grandfather contracted it, but considering how deep into the occult he was, it’s possible he participated in something that extreme. I honestly wouldn’t put it past him, my grandfather was a VERY sick, evil man.
A Prophecy of Sorts
My mother is deep into witchcraft as well now, she’s so deep into it that it seems to consume her life. She watches shows with nothing but horror, witchcraft, vampirism & death and seems obsessed with death and darkness. It will take an act of God, a true miracle to set her free at this point. The Lord will have to bring her to her knees just as he did with me. Despite my mother’s longstanding hatred of me, I’ve always loved her, and it pains me greatly that she has turned from God. I know the Lord will work repentance to salvation in her someday, but not while I live.
God told me some years ago that it’d be my death that brings her back to the cross and the Lord told me that before I knew I was so sick. So when I found out I was sick and the extent of my illness, and when I found out that my prognosis was extremely grim, I knew that what God had told me was true. He then confirmed it with a dream about a year and a half after my dad died. It may have even been a vision, I’m not really sure but it was very lucid and as it was happening, I knew within myself what the Lord was telling me, he was trying to comfort me regarding her, that while I may not live to see her return to the cross, God would still answer my prayers for her salvation.
There are more concrete things that confirm it for me as well. Christ said that if we ask anything in His name, it would be added unto us. The way that I interpret that is that as long as we are asking him for something that is either in his will or character to give, then its a sure promise that we can feel secure in. If God does not want that any should perish and I pray for my mother’s salvation, and I am asking for it in His name, then it will be added to me and I have received that in faith.
(Note: Make no mistake, this is a personal prophecy of sorts, and anyone who hears a personal prophecy should be careful about believing it. Why? Because only the word of God can be trusted as the truth, people can lie, but God is not a man that he should lie; you can trust the word of God but you shouldn’t easily trust the word of men so be careful about that. I’m only telling you of a very personal matter and experience with the Spirit inside me, I’m not saying “Thus saith the Lord” nor would I unless reading it from the scriptures; a personal experience is very intimate and open to interpretation, the scriptures are not.)
There were others in my family who were/are into the occult as well but I’ll go into their details maybe in some future posts. There may be even more that I simply don’t know about because they were in a more remote generation and I honestly don’t know most of my family, who or where they are so there’s much to learn about my family tree if the Lord wants me to know someday. Growing up, my dad used to beat my brother and I in the name of God, he said, to save our souls from hell-fire. While I think that may have truly been part of his motivation at the time, I think it was also because he didn’t have a handle on his own anger and what he did was wrong and how he went about disciplining us was wrong, but considering where my dad came from, he did a fantastic job with his kids. After all, we came out alright and it could have been much much worse but in the thick of it, it felt wrong and it was despite the above.
So, as you can imagine, after I left home I wasn’t much interested in God or religion, in fact the thought of either angered me but my dad, my aunt and my grandmother (on my moms side) never gave up on me and they never stopped sharing the Gospel with me. However, it wasn’t until much later that I’d be given the gift of faith and it wasn’t until God brought me to my knees that I would finally look up to search him out instead of exalting myself above Him. My dad became much more supportive and no longer tried to discipline me once I turned 18 so he was a much more supportive person in my life after the years of abuse as a kid were over and he still read the scriptures to me when we’d hang out and he always talked about God to everyone he’d meet.
It used to annoy me actually because I used to be embarrassed by him talking about that stuff to my friends, now I miss those times more than anything and wish I had come to faith sooner and shared more of that time with my dad. I also wish I had helped bring some of my old friends to Christ though many of them despise religion, well, specifically Christianity. They seem fine with all the others as long as it’s not Judaeo Christian values or beliefs, they’re absolutely intolerant about Christianity but accepting with all the others. I could see the same pattern in the world and I always found it curious how people & society were accepting of all faiths, religions and beliefs as long as it didn’t have the word “Christian” associated with it. The enemy’s hatred of Christ betrays him and makes plain that anything the enemy despises is in fact good, pure & holy and Christ is the way and the truth & the life as far as I’m concerned now. It wasn’t always that way for me of course but I’m grateful to God that it is now.
The Supernatural Worldview
What I’m going to say next may be hard for some to process, especially if you’re not strong in your faith yet, have none at all or have never experienced anything “paranormal”. The world has conditioned us collectively to believe that only the natural world, discerned through what we can see, touch and feel can be real, that the supernatural is simply a figment of ones own mind/imagination or, that if we have a supernatural worldview then we must have mental illness or finally, we must be suffering from intractable stupidity. Those with a supernatural or spiritual worldview are often looked at as inferior, lacking all reason and logic and even downright dumb or worse, deceitful. This is how the world see’s people like me and maybe you agree, I’d tell you I don’t care (and I don’t) but I do care about your salvation and pray that those who don’t yet know Christ will before it’s too late.
So what is this thing that’s so hard to process? My entire life, for as long as I can remember, I’ve had a sort of second sight, I understand that this may sound very strange to some, but I can see things in the spiritual realm that most others can’t. It wasn’t until later in my life that I understood what these things were that I was seeing but they’ve always terrified me, they still do. Not only can I see them, I can sense them as well and their energy is like nothing else in this world, they’re incredibly evil, their energy is incredibly dense and gives me a feeling of foreboding and dread. I tend to sense them before I see them and every time it nearly paralyses me with fear and it’s never gotten any easier all these long years whenever they show up.
I still don’t know what they want other than to terrorize me but I’ll tell you, for the first time working on a page on this site, it was when I started going deep into how these entities behave and when I identified what they really are that I lost almost the entire page due to the text just disappearing. Hasn’t happened once until now over the last couple of weeks that I’ve been setting up this website so I can tell the enemy doesn’t want me writing this. Sometimes that’s how the enemy works, he and his devils like to do little things to annoy you to keep you from what you’ve purposed to do and having little energy to begin with, its not surprising they would do something to erase my entire testimony I had already almost finished typing up knowing it’d be difficult for me to go into that much depth again. Yes, spirits are real and they really can manifest themselves.
The last thing that happened to confirm what I already knew, after going to bed that night before I finished getting the bare bones of this testimony up, I was laying in bed and heard something growling right next to my ear. It wasn’t one of my furbutts, they were already fast asleep and that’s not the first time I’ve heard growling when I’m getting ready to say my prayers and go to bed. Point is, it seems the devil does not want me to finish this but I’m going to keep plugging along.
It’s irritating (& scary) things like this that the enemy does (to me and many others) to throw me off my path and it may seem stupid to others but I’m not the only one to notice that when you try to do something important, something you feel led by God to do that the enemy confirms he is throwing obstacles in your way. I have to remind myself to pray before I begin writing or begin work on projects such as this that I feel led by God to do as part of my calling because it definitely helps and keeps the enemy from distracting me as much. I don’t even know if anyone will read this but my hope is that my experience will resonate with someone else that has seen or noticed similar things. If nothing else, I hope this will strengthen someone else’s faith that maybe has had the same kind of experiences with these things, if they get nothing out of this other than seeing that they aren’t alone, then I have made a positive impact.
I suppose in old times I would be what’s called a seer, someone with the second sight but I asked the Lord to take it away from me. The dreams became particularly difficult to deal with, some of which were prophetic or precognitive dreams, I’ve freaked my husband out a few times with those, but others were downright terrifying or disturbing leaving a lasting effect on my mood sometimes for days. I have no idea why I have it but I asked God to take it away a few years ago because I’m convinced that much of it is not from God. I’ve asked him to only allow in that which is from him and I suppose in a very real way, this is preparing me for spiritual warfare later on and training me to call on Him when I need help. That’s really the only reason I can think of for why he would allow some of this stuff through.
Anyhow, before I received my diagnosis of AS and the migraine disorder, I began dabbling in witchcraft and eastern meditation. I was deep into hermeticism (hermeticism is simply the philosophy & instruction behind witchcraft and it’s very old) and I almost joined an organization called the Golden Dawn because I wanted to learn more about the mysteries and I wanted to know what all this secretive symbolism was about that I kept seeing in everything from pop culture, media and even company logo’s and everything in between. It fascinates me and I study it so that I can warn others to stay away from the occult, to turn to God instead because there’s no good thing in the occult, it only appears that way on the outside, like the whited sepulchers that Christ talked about. It was my meditation sessions that stopped me dead in my tracks from joining this organization, or rather, God himself who stopped me.
Familiar Spirits & The Occult
I was dabbling in the occult, witchcraft and meditation simultaneously and the further I went with it the darker it got. It started off great but gradually it got darker and darker until I felt almost trapped and had I gone any further, I would have been. It became a terror to me and I’ll tell you more about that in a bit but you must understand, God really saved my life. For quite some time before that, the dark entities that had haunted me since childhood had left me alone, I assume that’s because I was on the wrong path, exactly where they wanted me so they cut me a break for a couple of years, I only saw things on occasion and had the constant nightmares, but as I got deeper into witchcraft and meditation, they slowly began emerging into my reality again in greater and greater frequency. At that point I assumed they were what witches and the Bible both refer to as “familiar spirits”. And really, that’s exactly what they are, they are spirits that are all around us that know everything about us and our families as (most of the time) they enjoy pretty much complete anonymity since most people cannot see them.
They’re all around us, even Christians, and I want to take a moment to discuss this so that no one is confused: Christians cannot be demonically possessed, but they can be demonically oppressed. There are spiritual doors we sometimes unwittingly open that allow them permission to your life while other times it could be a generational curse that allows them access to you but I want to be clear, demonic oppression of Christians does happen and that is because we are on the front lines of a spiritual war; the grand chessboard of all ages, good vs. evil.
Back to familiar spirits, for awhile I thought maybe I was supposed to make contact with them, at least that’s what my books on witchcraft said and other witches I talked to, it wasn’t until later that I realized that they were demons even though I could feel & perceived that they were evil, I guess I was a little slow to recognize that they were the same evil things that haunted me since I was little but at that point, I didn’t really know what they were and didn’t have a spiritual or supernatural worldview, all I knew is I could see them and not many others could. And maybe having the word demon attached to them made them even more scary to me because of all I had heard growing up about demons and devils and truly, they are something to fear if you don’t have Christ. I had begun to develop somewhat of an addiction to witchcraft, yes, you really CAN make things happen with it and do things most people can’t, there is a power that comes with it but not a kind you want and if you do, then I pray for you. Soon after my addiction began to unfold to the occult and the craft I began meditating, initially as a way to relax but it turned out that other things began to happen during my meditation sessions that I never expected to happen.
Eastern Meditation, The Occult & The Shadow People
Awhile after I began meditating, after I had been doing it for awhile, I was meditating on my bed one night, my husband was downstairs with our son and I was relaxed and everything was great until suddenly I sensed something was watching me, I looked over towards our bedroom door and I saw what looked like the figure of a man but it wasn’t a man, it was something else. I initially thought it was an intruder and as he crossed the threshold into our room, I would’ve cried out for help but immediately was put into a deep sleep. By the time I came to I frantically looked around and then ran downstairs thinking an intruder had come in but found my husband playing video games with our son and everything was fine. Later I realized it was a familiar spirit that took the form of a man with a brimmed hat made of nothing but shadow. I later learned that many have seen this same form and there are many in the paranormal community that talk about him.
My husband knew I saw things sometimes and he thought it was a little weird but he never made me feel like I was crazy even though sometimes I wondered if I was. He didn’t have a spiritual or supernatural worldview either and I had no idea what I was playing with when I got into witchcraft & meditation. I would think I’m just a schizophrenic or something but my dad saw something in my room with me when I was a child one night and we both saw (and heard) a dense shadow shoot out from under my bed, it ran in between my dads legs and my dad went chasing after it out into the living room where we both saw it disappear through the wall right next to our front door. My dad was spooked to say the least and he began to pray for me and with me before bed after that. My grandmother has seen things around me as well and a couple of very old friends so that’s how I knew I couldn’t be crazy, these things were real, but most of the world has no idea what they are or that they exist at all. That’s a difficult reality for me sometimes although it’s gotten easier over the years, particularly since I came to know the Lord because he’s already answered every question that I could have about them in the pages of scripture and there is also power in His name which I will talk more about below.
My meditation sessions began to get more and more intense until one day in my studio (our spare room in the house I use for crafts), I had the last meditation session I’ll ever have and I’ll tell you why in a minute. One of my cats, her name is Gizmo, was in the studio with me that day being lazy and I was laying on my couch because it hurts too much to sit up for too long (I’ve been in chronic pain for many years, first a car accident & then the systemic arthritis began to cause serious pain), so I was laying down and just kind of naturally began to slip into a sort of trance, when you’ve been meditating for awhile you naturally just start slipping deeper into them more easily and that’s what happened the last time I had one of these sessions which at that point I had been doing pretty regularly every day, sometimes quite a few times a day.
I remember the man made of pure shadow entering into the room with me again even though the door was closed and I again slipped into what seems like was a deep sleep as soon as I saw him and I don’t know how long I was like that, it seemed like a long time but finally I started to hear this noise, it seemed far away at first and it began to get closer and closer & louder and louder until I finally realized that it was my cat Gizmo frantically crying & mewing at me, she was even pulling on my hair with her teeth to get me to wake up and I finally came to, sat up and realized why she was freaking out so bad. There were hundreds of these things, these entities made of shadow in the room with us, shadowy creatures in forms that are difficult to describe and they were swarming all around me, they were everywhere trying to get inside me and I was TERRIFIED.
I had never seen that many in the same place at the same time like that before and the energy they gave off was suffocating. It was in that moment of terror that something inside me told me to call on the name of Christ. My grandmother, my dad and my aunt always told me to call on Christ if I ever got in trouble and needed help, I thought they were bat sh!t crazy at the time or at the very least full of crap but in this moment, something urged me strongly; call on Him. I did just that and immediately they stopped swarming, they paused as if surprised to hear the name and then began to hurriedly retreat into the shadows like a stampede until they disappeared into the wall of my studio and it was in that moment that I realized that there was incredible power in this name, a power I had never seen before that made these evil things flee in fear.
For the very first time in my life, they feared ME and that was exhilarating because they had tormented me for many years before that, they still try to sometimes but all I have to do is call on Christ, even thinking his name will abort these experiences. It was also then that I realized that these familiar/unclean spirits had forced contact with me, I wasn’t even trying to make contact even though all of my books said I should and all of the other witches I spoke to on message boards said I should as they would “guide” me. Yeah, guide me straight to hell! I didn’t feel like I was ready to make contact with them yet but that didn’t stop them. I’m glad the Lord intervened when he did. I probably still don’t understand the true extent of the danger I was in during that time in my life so I thank God every day for saving me.
Sleep Paralysis, The Night-Mara & The Name of Christ
It didn’t take long after that day in the studio before they tried to attack again, this time it was in the form of sleep paralysis. They were no longer allowed to come into my physical space because the same day they attacked me in my studio, I called my grandmother to help me pray over my home so that they could no longer enter into my space to terrorize me. My grandmother knows the power of God and because of that, she prays with authority; she is one of the strongest prayer warriors I’ve ever seen besides my friend Becki.
You’re probably wondering what sleep paralysis is. Sleep paralysis is a “sleep disorder” that science tries to explain away as something relatively normal, not spiritual you see, it’s never spiritual, it’s just a “disorder”. Maybe I could accept that and I probably would have before this one particular night but as I lay there, every single part of my body paralyzed except for my eyes, fully conscious of the fact that I was completely helpless, I felt the familiar evil presence & energy of the shadows, the feeling of dread and foreboding coming over me, unable to even cry out for my husband to help me. It felt like a lifetime like that, not knowing what exactly was there with me but being fully aware of it’s presence and again I remembered Christ and because I couldn’t speak, I simply thought the words “Jesus save me” and the experience aborted.
I’ve also trained myself to call on Christ in my dreams when the evil things show up and every time it’s the same, the experience or the dream aborts when I think His name. If the name of Christ can abort these experiences, and only the name of Christ, then I’m forced to the same conclusion the church was; that sleep paralysis & these kinds of nightmares & experiences are wholly spiritual in nature and that the name of Jesus Christ can deliver us from these things every time without fail. Sleep paralysis in old times used to be called the old hag syndrome and the incubus and succubus demons.
Many people believe (and I’m one of them) that sleep paralysis is responsible for “alien” abduction “memories” and I’ll do an in depth post on sleep paralysis another time because many don’t understand that they can abort the experience simply by thinking Christ’s name, even if you’re not a believer yet, it still works. Even the word “Nightmare” is derived from an old Anglo-Saxon and Old Norse term “mara” (Also: “mahr”, “mahrt” or “mart”) for a demon that sat on sleeping peoples’ chests, causing them to have bad dreams. It’s interesting to note that “Mara” is the name that Naomi asked to be called by when she returned home to Israel in the book of Ruth, in her words; “for the Almighty has made life very bitter for me” because she came home a widow and childless, only Ruth there to comfort her in her sorrow and grief. I find it to be a most interesting parallel.
It was after these experiences with the name of Christ that I realized that I had to learn some things and I spent the next couple of years studying everything from biology, cosmology, physics, genetics, mathematics and more trying to find proof of this God I had realized was real and I studied why and how he was so different from every other god and why Christianity was so different from all other religions on this earth. I have a very analytical mind but I also thought, if God is real, surely there must be some kind of proof of his existence and sure enough, there is, but I didn’t find that proof only in a textbook, I also found it in a particular passage of scripture, beautiful in its simplicity, one I had read a thousand times but this time it seemed so simple though all other times I had read it it had confused me and that was Romans 1:20
“For the invisible things of him from the creation of the world are clearly seen, being understood by the things that are made, even his eternal power and Godhead; so that they are without excuse:”
The Case For God & The Catastrophic Case Against Evolution
It was the scripture above, as well as my studies into the sciences that finally provided the proof I personally needed to believe. It wasn’t just the sciences alone or just the scriptures alone, it was both of those things together that provided enough evidence plus these experiences I had had which cannot be explained by science alone nor a simply natural worldview. Sadly, most will reject the proof God left for his existence to follow lies, following after men who will itch their ears with what they want to hear. Lies like evolution that men follow after because they don’t like what it would mean to submit to God, rebellious at their core. God said rebellion is as the sin of witchcraft, that’s certainly not a place I want to ever find myself in again and I hope you don’t either.
I studied the theory of evolution thoroughly because I wanted to know the truth once and for all and really, evolution is the ONLY obstacle in the way of a supernatural worldview and I figured if evolution were true, then surely I’d find some proof of that; so I looked for it, I looked for it for years but I never found the proof I required to believe it was true, instead I found that my studies were proving the case for a creator God over and over and over again. Not everyone requires the kind of proof I was so determined to find but in all my studies in the sciences, I kept coming to the same conclusion over and over, that they really don’t have an explanation for why we are here or how we are here, it’s all lies to comfort atheists in their unbelief, the facade that they are SURE evolution is how everything exists not only isn’t sufficient, it actually requires more faith to believe in evolution than it does to believe in God. More than a grain of mustard seed I’ll tell you that much. There is no proof for evolution and it takes a bit of diligent digging to uncover that fact in any one of their claims, but I did just that, relentlessly and systematically digging into all of their claims and coming to the realization that evolution is just another religion complete with its own dogma and priesthood.
I’m sure you’ve heard the expression that the greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was to convince the world that he doesn’t exist and that’s exactly what scientism has done, it’s provided this false explanation of the world that includes just enough truth in a lie to doubt God and not enough proof to prove that worldview true beyond a reasonable doubt because it doesn’t exist. The scientific community has turned what was once an admirable aim, to prove the Bible, into a full fledged religion in its own right. It’s sad really.
Because evolution supposedly takes place over “millions and millions of years”, the theory is in complete defiance of the scientific method and as such it cannot be observed and it cannot be tested because of it’s very nature of requiring unreasonably long periods of time to be reproduced/observed, meaning it can NEVER be fully proven, or dis-proven. Because of that fact, it is not science at all but metaphysics. In my view, evolution is much more difficult to believe than the supernatural worldview that God created everything and the proof that God has provided is the creation itself; evolution has no such explanation, scientists claim that primordial soup baked on a rock for “millions of years” and poof! that created life out of dead chemicals and what is that theory, really, other than sun worship??? “The sun created life!” In essence, that’s exactly what they believe. And remember, there are at least a couple of different definitions of evolution, there’s adaptation and natural selection which they claim proves evolution, as well as the theory of speciation; the gradual development of one population of a species into a distinctly different population that can no longer interbreed with the “parent” population.
Evolution & The Strong Delusion
The whole world went after this lie long before the inner workings of the so called “simple” cell were uncovered and before we even knew what DNA was and how it worked let alone what it looked like. We now know that DNA is a sophisticated programming language, one that’s far more complex than anything man has or can ever create, and encoded in the sequence of DNA molecules are the digital instructions to code for proteins and proteins are the building blocks of the not so simple cell and life. I’m convinced that evolution is part of the strong delusion, part of THE lie that the Lord speaks about in the pages of Revelation, the one that the whole world goes after, except for the elect. I believe that “aliens” will be the other arm of that lie but I will get into the details on why I believe that in a future post. I’m sure you’ve all seen how common the idea of aliens has become over the years, it’s common to see movies, TV shows, commercials etc. with just that theme; so much so that it’s almost ubiquitous in our culture now.
But back to evolution, you might be thinking: “But science has proven evolution! Just look at adaptation, that proves evolution!” My response to that is this: Don’t you think that God was smart enough to create man and animals with the ability to adapt to their environment? Don’t you think he’d be brilliant enough to write that capability into the DNA of every living thing, the Book of Life? If not, you’re not giving him enough credit. If he created everything then he must be brilliant enough to encode that in our DNA. Further, the theory of evolution hinges on mutations. What they don’t tell you is that those mutations are almost always deleterious in nature, very few are beneficial. What that means is that the mutations, instead of adding information, lose it and for those mutations to be truly beneficial to a species, it has to happen before the organism mates in order to insert it into the germline where it becomes a heritable trait.
If that weren’t bad enough for the theory of evolution, not only are these mutations deleterious, they are also compounding deleterious mutations in every new generation in every species. So there are anywhere between 300 to 500 (or more, scientists aren’t really sure) deleterious mutations every single new generation in compounding fashion which LOSE genetic information. That is catastrophic for the theory of evolution on its own and there is much more that disproves it. This is the overwhelming fact that population geneticists have known, though quietly, for some time now, terrified of what that means for the theory of evolution which much of the world of science teaches lay people is “fact”, they tell the public that its “proven” but they are also terrified for their careers which would be destroyed by other scientists/institutions to protect their religion. If none of what I’ve said so far has convinced you, maybe some of these quotes from actual scientists will:
“There are only two possibilities as to how life arose; one is spontaneous generation arising to evolution, the other is a supernatural creative act of God, there is no third possibility. Spontaneous generation that life arose from non-living matter was scientifically disproved 120 years ago by Louis Pasteur and others. That leaves us with only one possible conclusion, that life arose as a creative act of God. I will not accept that philosophically because I do not want to believe in God, therefore I choose to believe in that which I know is scientifically impossible, spontaneous generation arising to evolution.”
(Dr. George Wald, evolutionist, Professor Emeritus of Biology at the University at Harvard, Nobel Prize winner in Biology.)
“Most modern biologists, having reviewed with satisfaction the downfall of the spontaneous generation hypothesis, yet unwilling to accept the alternative belief in special creation, are left with nothing.”
(Dr. George Wald, evolutionist, Professor Emeritus of Biology at the University at Harvard, Nobel Prize winner in Biology.)
“Evolution [is] a theory universally accepted not because it can be proven by logically coherent evidence to be true, but because the only alternative, special creation, is clearly incredible.”
(Professor D.M.S. Watson, leading biologist and science writer of his day.)
“My attempts to demonstrate evolution by an experiment carried on for more than 40 years have completely failed…..It is not even possible to make a caricature of an evolution out of paleobiological facts…The idea of an evolution rests on pure belief.”
(Dr. Nils Heribert-Nilsson, noted Swedish botanist and geneticist, of Lund University)
“Scientists who go about teaching that evolution is a fact of life are great con-men, and the story they are telling may be the greatest hoax ever! In explaining evolution we do not have one iota of fact.”
(Dr. Newton Tahmisian, Atomic Energy Commission.)
“When you realize that the laws of nature must be incredibly finely tuned to produce the universe we see, that conspires to plant the idea that the universe did not just happen, but that there must be a purpose behind it.”
(John Polkinghorne, Cambridge University physicist, “Science Finds God,” Newsweek, 20 July, 1998)
“Many have a feeling that somehow intelligence must have been involved in the laws of the universe.”
(Charles Townes, 1964 Nobel Prize winner in physics, “Science Finds God,” Newsweek, 20 July, 1998)
“250,000 species of plants and animals recorded and deposited in museums throughout the world did not support the gradual unfolding hoped for by Darwin.”
(Dr. David Raup, curator of geology at the Field Museum of Natural History in Chicago, “Conflicts Between Darwinism and Paleontology”)
“Scientists at the forefront of inquiry have put the knife to classical Darwinism. They have not gone public with this news, but have kept it in their technical papers and inner counsels.”
(Dr. William Fix, in his book, “The Bone Peddlers.”)
“In the meantime, the educated public continues to believe that Darwin has provided all the relevant answers by the magic formula of random mutations plus natural selection—quite unaware of the fact that random mutations turned out to be irrelevant and natural selection tautology.”
(Dr. Arthur Koestler)
“A growing number of respectable scientists are defecting from the evolutionist camp…..moreover, for the most part these “experts” have abandoned Darwinism, not on the basis of religious faith or biblical persuasions, but on strictly scientific grounds, and in some instances, regretfully.”
(Dr. Wolfgang Smith, physicist and mathematician)
“It must be significant that nearly all the evolutionary stories I learned as a student….have now been debunked.”
(Dr. Derek V. Ager, Department of Geology, Imperial College, London)
In conclusion; of course, there is much more that I have learned over my years of study into these things, but I will elaborate on more in future posts. But I wanted to illustrate to you how I came to faith, yes it is a gift from God, but some like me, require more proof than others to grow that faith into something meaningful and I sought that out diligently over the course of several years and I *still* read scientific papers to this day because I never want to stop learning about the amazing creation God made.
Based on my studies and research, I can honestly say that it takes MORE faith to believe that evolution is true than it does just to believe that there is a God that created everything and in the beginning, I didn’t want to believe there was a God because if there was, then he made everything, and if he made everything then he OWNS everything and as such, he has expectations of the crown jewel of his creation; mankind, that I didn’t want to face as I was in rebellion against God.
Like Dr. George Wald said above, he didn’t WANT to believe in God so instead he believed a LIE *knowing* it was a lie. But luckily for me, I was only like Dr. Wald in that, at first, I didn’t like what believing in God meant, but I’ve never been the type to shy away from the truth, even if I don’t like the consequences so I didn’t go the way of Dr. Wald; I refused that path to the saving of my soul. All these years later, it doesn’t seem such a hard thing at all to believe God and to believe IN God. It takes time to grow your faith but grow it did and now it’s not just something I believe; I KNOW it’s true.
May God bless and keep all of you, Amen.